December 2010
33 posts
Why cant I
get angry? Hold a grudge for more than 30 seconds? cry? throw things? yell?
I’m so annoyed with myself and my ability to not hate people
WHY CANT I HATE YOU FOR ONE SECOND?!?!
you may very well deserve it, but I cannot direct any hate in your direction
I feel so fake…this blog doesnt represent me. I have reread some posts and…im too god damn happy/hopeful/thoughtful.
I...
STARgazing
There is nothing like laying on the hard ground and looking up at the stars…my vision focuses and refocuses, trying to see every star. I see the curvature of the sky…the twinkling of the stars. The cold air going through my jeans and me trying desperately to keep warm. The whole experience is invigorating…something so simple and yet so…beautiful. The sky is...
SlmPIE ThINGs: Next Year! →
crazy-j:
Posting this early cuz i know i will forget!
Hopefully it’s a much better year next year! This year tore me apart, literally. I have stretch marks to prove it.
Goals:
Start taking things seriously! (kinda late, but still just as good)
Drink less, except when i turn 21.
Work out…
DANCE DANCE DANCE :D
We could be a beautiful, miracle..
and yet…i dont think that you see it.
shame
as I look back on it (and I have been-constantly), I think that I still want that aka what we had…it made me feel cared for, giddy, crazy happy, and safe (not the bad safe when its boring, cuz there really was no security, but the kind of safe when I knew that you didnt want to hurt me). I’ll find that again, dont worry. You will...
Tomorrow!
I get to see my fellow choir mommies, Steph and Aly!!!!!!!! I cannot wait!
WE ARE GONNA MAKE MOCHI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! XD
I love going on hikes. It is the simplest thing: being surrounded by nature. Since it rained, it was so green! Forest green, fluorescent green, regular green, and every shade in between! I just wanted to take a deep breath and breathe it all in! There is nothing...
almost a new year!
Almost there…
I really cant believe it! In 2010, I have discovered sunroofsurfing, got introduced to really good musical artists, FUGITIVE, chosen a college, fell for someone unexpected, graduated, had my first solo for a choir concert, broken up with a boyfriend, went to hawaii, had a rough patch with friends, got back with that boyfriend, went to college, met some GREAT people at cal...
God says:
You say: It’s impossible
God says: All things are possible (Luke 18:27)
You say: I’m too tired
God says: I will give you rest (Matthew 11:28-30)
You say: Nobody really loves me
God says: I love you (John 3:16 & John 13:34)
You say: I can’t go on
God says: My grace is sufficient (II Corinthians 12:9 & Psalms.91:15)
You say: I can’t figure things out
God says: I will direct your steps (Proverbs 3:5-6)
You say: I can’t do it
God says: You can do all things (Philippians 4:13)
You say: I’m not able
God says: I am able (II Corinthians 9:8)
You say: It’s not worth it
God says: It will be worth it (Romans 8:28)
You say: I can’t forgive myself
God says: I FORGIVE YOU (I John 1:9 & Romans 8:1)
You say: I can’t manage
God says: I will supply all your needs (Philippians 4:19)
You say: I’m afraid
God says: I have not given you a spirit of fear (II Timothy 1:7)
You say: I’m always worried and frustrated
God says: Cast all your cares on ME (I Peter 5:7)
You say: I don’t have enough faith
God says: I’ve given everyone a measure of faith (Romans 12:3)
You say: I’m not smart enough
God says: I give you wisdom (I Corinthians 1:30)
You say: I feel all alone
God says: I will never leave you or forsake you (Hebrews 13:5)
New years resolutions
So I dont think that i ever make new years resolutions..and I guess a resolution of this year is that I make one and stick with it lol
I think that I would like to post 30 tumblr posts a month…either a quote i like, actual thoughts, updates about my life, or anything really.
I would also like to keep in touch more with my friends…skype, text, email, whatever. Just SOMETHING!!
I...
day 3 - wrath. seven things that piss you off.
infinityac:
People being rude.
People who hold grudges.
Assumptions
Attitudes
Immaturity
Spoiled brats. Brat being the key word.
People who have it so easy that everything is practically given to them.
agreed!!! #3,5,6,and 7 ESPECIALLY
Greggy's blog :]: Worthlessness →
greggydrift:
I admit I haven’t been the greatest person lately, definitely haven’t proven myself a lot lately. I’ve lost all motivation for everything. I already felt worthless when I felt that I didn’t do as well this semester as I could have. I already felt worthless when I put my all in a relationship and…
do it for yourself…and know that im here for you, dear =D
Who am I? (part II)
You know what I have been wondering? How are people’s perceptions of me different? Like, I know people perceived me in a certain way in high school..and now people in college see me and form opinions themselves. I am wondering what those are and how they are different.
It is so interesting to me, to think about how everyone looks at the world and sees different things. That tree was a...
I want to say things on here
but I cant.
I dont want eveyone to know my business (since this is public and linked to my fb) but I also want to get things out there
I can say things on my blog that I cant say in person, but this is important..
I wish I wasnt so scared
I love being in my room :D I put up christmas lights and it is so nice and festive here yeeeeeeeeee!! CHRISTMAS TIMEE!!! it didnt really hit me until now...
Relief
There isnt a concrete reason for why I am relieved right now, but I am :D
i know i dont need anything like that right now, but i didnt know that i dont want anything right now.
I guess that I dont want to deal with stuff of that nature..there has just been too much of that going on. It’s like crazy thought and emotional overload!
Respect is hard to earn, but here is mine.
People are...
I would love in slow motion...
I found this on one of my guy friend’s blog and doesnt that give you the chills?? I dont know, for me? its like velvet. Something that should be said soft and slowww..its sensual, sexy, and divine. Even though that doesnt really actually happen, it would be nice. pure. serene. sincere…
12/2/10
I think that I need to love in slow motion…love for me cant be fast (anymore) and...
“As the saying goes, “be kind for everyone is fighting some kind of battle”. If...”
– I am here for you.
and please “Trust Him”
He isnt against you. He is always going to be there to offer support. You know I’m not religious but I do believe. I have faith. there is a difference and that difference makes me trust him rather than fear him. I feel empowered rather...
“The beauty of a woman is not in the clothes she wears, the figure that she...”
– (via nhanexistent)
woooow…daaang >.<
Society is wrong. Dead wrong. We're taught that...
whenever I see words like these, I feel so empowered :)
I love it when someone can say one thing, do one thing, LOOK at me in a certain way and I feel “perfect.” I dont feel self concious..i feel like how im supposed to feel every moment of my life. I am cute, beautiful, sexy, awesome, flawless, the best. I actually love my body and my mind.
my eyes, lips, hair, collar bones,...
oh damn...
its a shock
its a physical change
its crazy what one look can do to me
sharp inhale, shaking, heart pounding, and thinking “oh my god” over and over again
its still hard to be totally detached
It isnt really possible at this point
I get so distracted
and I think about everything too much
too much for my own good
BUT…I like how this is different than a previous...
“If you like her, if she makes you happy, and if you feel like you know her—then...”
– Nicholas Sparks (via theclassicprep)
<3
Sad Truth
infinityac:
A girl, no matter how many times she denies it, will always remember every detail, every moment, every piece of the memories you’ve left her. No matter how much she tries to forget, it will forever be there.
…the thing is, i want to remember, no matter how hard it is now.
Be a romantic
I think that I romanticise a lot of things…fate, destiny, the good of humanity, relationships, people, and coincidences
I hope that things are “meant to be”….if not, what else would it be? There must be a plan…not God if you dont believe in Him, but what about the Universe? Things dont happen just because…certain events lead up to it, comprise it, and resolve...
What is happening??
Why did I just want to cry?? I am looking back at my old tumblr posts and I stumbled across these words:
“discovering how worthy I am to have my life.”
“It’s so beautiful to know you. This person can penetrate my soul and move me in a way that not many can.”
“dont be afraid to get close to people”
“be spontaneous”
“know God is with you...